That L Word

Things are going so well for Jackie and I. We’ve spent a lot of time together over the past week or so and it’s been a blast. It seems like just about everyone likes her already too. Most of my friends haven’t even met her, but they like her just from the stories I’ve told them or from their own interactions with her via text message on my phone. Or the voicemail she left Mike full of weird purring (bordering on wookie-like) noises that are much like ones I would leave for him. She’s hard not to like, she’s awesome. I told one of my tours at work today about her, what she does for a living and how she got started in her job and the lady was so happy she was almost crying and said that Jackie’s “a true inspiration” to her and is kind of her personal hero now. Wild stuff.

I can’t wait for summer to come. I can’t wait until we can go run around and find stuff to do together. Starting this week Jackie will have off on Thursdays so we’ll finally have one day off together which is super exciting. It’ll be nice in summer when we can spend that together outside, whether it’s at the Philly zoo or running around Brooklyn or just laying on the bank of a pond somewhere enjoying the weather. I can’t wait.

I bought a book about investing a few days ago. It bothered me that I didn’t even know what a 401k was, let alone what to do with it. So this book spells all that out and will help me with at least the basics in investing and how to make better use of my money. Lord knows I need it. So hopefully in 20 years I’ll be filthy rich :p

Myspace is full of errors today. They’re really not unexpected, they should change that.

All this talk about summer has me listening to some of the Brazilian dnb from a few years back. Marky, Patife and Fernanda Porto. So nice right now. I picture being at some outdoor club with Jackie right on or next to the beach, drinking mojitos and just getting down with the moon hanging low over the ocean. That’d be nice right now.

We’re getting the house wired up for high speed internet access tomorrow. This makes me terribly happy. I’ll finally have a fast reliable connection again. I’m so excited. I’ll feel normal again!

Morning Affirmations

Lately I’ve been trying to read a lot of books on positive thinking, especially before going to bed and when I wake up.  For the last few weeks I’ve been reading Jeffrey Gitomer’s ‘Little Gold Book of YES! Attitude’ and it’s fantastic.  Here’s one of the pages I just read tonight.  It’s 25 things you can tell yourself each morning to get yourself in the right mindframe for the day.

• I am the friendliest person in the world.
• I am the most enthusiastic person in the world.
• I am the most helpful person in the world.
• I will tell myself what I can do, not what I can’t.
• I love to serve.
• I love to sell.
• I don’t prejudge or put down anyone.
• I will take control of myself and my success.
• I will remember the good times as often as I can.
• I will ask for what I want.
• I will stick at it until I win, even if my ass falls off.
• Life may not be a blast right now, but look at all I’ve learned, and look where I can get with hard work.
• I will reinforce my decisions with positive thoughts, not negative second guesses.
• I will thank everyone for their help and never measure.
• I will ask before I tell.
• I will give with pride.
• I will be memorable.
• I will avoid arguments.
• I will not gripe or whine about my lot in life. Rather, I will celebrate all I have, all I love, and all I will learn.
• I will feel GREAT when I make a sale.
• I will earn more when I make a sale.
• I will celebrate my victories today.
• I am grateful for life and living.
• I will have a great time tomorrow.
• I will get over it in less than one minute and get back to enjoying life.

Obviously some of those are very sales oriented, but as you can see, most of them apply outside of sales as well.  Fantastic book, I can’t recommend it highly enough and that actually goes for his red sales books as well, they’re great.

My Baby

I am dating the greatest girl ever.  So fucking rad.  Whenever we’re together I’m so happy and so giddy.  As soon as I leave I can’t wait to see her again.  She just had to increase her cell phone minutes.  I’m probably going to have to increase my text messages.  We’re like high school kids in that we act really goofy with our affection towards each other, but there is most definitely the underlying long term commitment and desires that a high school relationship could never have or realize.  And we’ve talked about this.  And, as with everything we’ve talked about, we’re on the exact same page.  It’s as if our minds are mirror images. We’re constantly saying “…I was just about to do that!”

Example.  Today I looked on her myspace page and she has Folk Implosion’s ‘Natural One’ playing on it.  Last week I was contemplating putting that on mine because I’ve been listening to the acoustic version non-stop lately.  We’ve never talked about that song or played it in each othere’s company, she’s never seen the movie ‘Kids’ (which it’s featured in) and it’s certainly not a real common song nowadays (was it ever?).

We’re constantly catching ourselves doing things in front of the other person that no couple of two weeks should be doing.  But it feels right and it doesn’t feel rushed or awkward or out of place or anything, it feels right.  Hell, we’ve already talked about moving in with each other in a few months which normally would feel incredibly rushed and scary but, here it feels perfect.  It means we’ll get a place in between our current locations.  It means I won’t be making that drive home at 2am and afraid of falling asleep, instead I’ll be making it to and from work when I’m awake.  It’ll also give me time to get pumped up and ready for work and also let work go afterwards.

I guess what I’m saying is for the first time in a long time I’m actually happy.  And not partially happy or even mostly happy but entirely happy.  I can’t wait to see what the near future holds.  I can’t wait for summer.  I can’t wait to go out and do a lot of the things we’ve talked about doing once it gets a little lot warmer out.  We’re most definitely good for each other.  We compliment each other very well.

I guess that’s all for now.